Revelations

So my wife and I have been actively trying to have kids for awhile now, with no real luck to be seen. This is especially hard for my wife, considering her main thing in life is to become a mother. She'll make a good one, too. Last night, she found out her sister is pregnant after only having just started trying a very short time ago. Needless to say, that didn't help her feelings toward the subject. She's convinced there's something wrong with her physically or something, while I try to take a more positive approach and simply assume it'll happen at some random time. In reflection of this, I offer these poignant lyrics by Concrete Blonde that I think fit the subject quite well:

Say its been too hard
Say its been too long
You say its all too much
The thrill has long been gone
Well I thought you could
Yes I thought you could
And you thought you could too

But its a place and time
Where the years behind are piled up high
But never mind
Its time to crash and burn or fly
And I thought you could
You know I thought you could
You know I thought you could too

Go to sleep now
Go on dream away
Isn't easy is it, babe?
And I hope
And I dream
And I pray
That sometime
Well find a way

Some say easy come
Some say easy go
Some say time flies by too fast
Some say it drags on all too slow
Well I thought you could
You know I thought you could
And I thought I could too

But if you never find
The heart to start all over again
Remember I was one
Who tried to be a friend to you,
Well you know I tried
Yes you know I tried
And I know you tried too

Go to sleep now
Go on dream away
Isn't easy is it, babe?
And I hope
And I dream
And I pray
That sometime
Well find a way

As for the rest of the time recently, we've spent it getting settled, Kherstin getting into a new job (which I will elaborate on further in another post) and attending my family reunion. That is always a fun event, although I really don't know many of the people on that side of the family. On our way back we stopped by our family cemetery, which is located in secret (or so it would seem) deep in the Ozarks of Missouri. I can honestly say, if you did not know where this place was, you never would. Very quiet, peaceful and serene though. I don't know if my wife and I will ever lay there when our time comes...I prefer the idea of us being cremated and having our ashes mixed together in an urn of some time...probably of our own design. Just something about the whole burial process creeps me out. Probably that whole "death" part.